01 March 2018

31 Days of Self Love - Day 1

I found this really great set of prompts while looking for daily quotes for my Facebook one day, and originally decided that I would post them on Facebook for the month of March, and let others play along. When I started attempting to keep a blog again, I figured this was a more appropriate place to display them. Readers, you're still welcome to join the conversation! Just leave a comment on the post with your answer or feedback. I am going to try to be good and keep up with this daily! So, without further adieu...

What is your biggest struggle with loving yourself? Way to start it off tough, huh? I'm not even sure that I can trace this back to one incident or one person or one concrete reason. I have just NEVER thought that I was good enough - ever. Even as a kid, there was the constant comparison to other kids. Other kids were always prettier than me, or better at things than me. It's a shame that this didn't even end in childhood. As an adult, I've had family members (yes, family members) point out how much better off another relative was, or belittle something I'm passionate about in life.

I remember reading a quote online about people who apologize for the things they're into. We apologize because we're so used to being teased, made fun of, belittled for the things that set our souls on fire. It's hard to love yourself when people at every turn have found reasons to insult you for those things.

It's taken me a long time to get to a point where I feel that I mostly love myself. You'll notice that I've still said that I just mostly love myself. I still - as an ADULT - feel on guard when I get excited about things. I still feel like someone is going to be making fun of me for being passionate about saving animals, or about some of the admittedly nerdy things that I enjoy. It's taken me well into my adulthood to be at a point where I am ready to tell someone off for being mean to me. There is zero reason that there should be bullies following me into my adult life - and even less reason that some of them should be related to me. It's taken me a long time to know that I can just cut people out of my life if they don't deserve to be there - it's probably taken me too long.

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