02 March 2018

31 Days of Self Love - Day 2

Get rid of a limiting belief that you have about yourself or your abilities. Why am I finding this particular prompt to be so difficult? I guess I never really thought about it before being confronted with it, but I have SO MANY thoughts about myself that really do limit me. I think I'm not good enough in so many areas of life. Most people who only know me at work would never think this, because I come off as moderately confident and happy most of the time - but on the inside, and behind closed doors, I am full of self-doubt, and am incredibly hard on myself about everything.

I am going to try - and I say try because having self-confidence has been a lifelong struggle for me - to push away the belief that I'm not as good as other people. I don't even have a specific instance to point out, as there are so many times that I look at someone else and think they are better than me - in every single aspect. If someone tells me I am pretty, I point out that another girl is prettier. If someone tells me that I did a good job on a task, I point out that someone else did their task better. I feel like I never accept compliments appropriately, and I am going to work on that. Always thinking that someone else is better holds me back constantly. Thinking someone else is prettier makes me not work as hard to lose weight and feel better about myself, because I always think that it won't be good enough - that even if I get to my personal ideal, it won't be enough, because someone out there will still be better.

I need to stop comparing myself to other people, and just accept who I am, and be the best version of myself that I can be. It's funny - I have spent the last couple of months posting almost-daily inspirational quotes on Facebook, telling my friends these very things - that they're good enough, pretty enough, smart enough - and I've truly believed it about my friends. But I've never really believed it about myself. 

You are enough. I am enough.

And now, I need to practice what I preach, and go out there and believe it - and I need to act like I truly believe it.

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