The weighting game

I don't think that people who have been blessed with amazing metabolism or naturally slender bodies can even begin to imagine what a struggle it is to lose weight - and keep it off. Last year, I decided to change my eating habits, and managed to drop just about fifty pounds between March and September. I was SO proud. As I started losing weight, I started noticing changes in my body. My favorite change was going from a size 24 pants to a size 20 (a size I hadn't been able to wear in YEARS), and from an XXL shirt to an XL shirt (I don't remember the last time I was able to wear an XL shirt!).

After my gallbladder attack in early September, I completely slacked off. While I should have improved my eating habits to hopefully ward off any future attacks (my attack happened after splurging on a greasy sandwich and some fudge), I read on several medical websites that rapid weight loss can attribute to gallbladder attacks. So, I somehow made up in my mind that I didn't want to lose anymore weight, because I didn't want to have another attack (it was seriously the worst pain I've ever experienced in my entire life. So awful! I thought I was dying!). I went back to unhealthy eating habits, and splurged far more often than I should have. Somehow in those last four months of the year, I gained back almost thirty of the pounds that I had lost.

I've decided again that I am sick of being fat. I mean, I've never LIKED being fat (I don't think anyone does!). And now that my gallbladder issues aren't holding me back (you know, since I don't even have one at this point!), I'm taking the plunge toward losing weight again.

My ultimate goal is to be a size 14 in pants - a size I haven't seen since middle school - and a large in tops.

I have written weight loss goals on the calendar for the next four months. I've decided that a ten pound per month weight loss would be perfect. However, there will be months that are harder than others. So, I went through the first four months of the calendar and wrote out my weight loss number goal. That way, my actual goal is to lose 40 pounds in 4 months. If I lose more in January, I will be ahead of the game for February in case I have a hard month, and so on.

Fingers are crossed. Toes are crossed. And that little dress I have hanging in my closet for when I get down to a certain size, is just waiting to be worn!